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Just a Note

Hi there, friends.

I have to say, I usually put a lot of pressure on myself regarding this blog: I feel like everything I publish has to be Really Good. Like I have to spend hours writing and rewriting each post until it feels near-perfect, until it’s a polished essay. Like just writing a quick update is not allowed.

Well, whatever. Today I’m just writing a quick update. I’m writing this post from top to bottom with no major editing, something I don’t usually do.

The reason I haven’t posted in a while is partly because I’ve been overwhelmed with my current job, which is in healthcare. The short version of the story about my job is that it’s not good. The company is not good, the management is not good, the building infrastructure is not good, the pressure is not good, the hours are not good, the commute is not good, the stress is not good, and the anxiety and dread are definitely not good. Things that are ok include: the money. Things that are great include: the patients, and a few of my co-workers. Everything else is not good. I might be able to last another month at this job. I don’t think I can last much longer than that.

The other reason I haven’t posted in a while is because I’m applying to faculty jobs this year, which itself is another full-time job. I finally finished submitting all my applications and am in the interviewing/wondering if I’m going to get more interviews phase.

I made a few “resolutions”, or let’s say “intentions” for the month of January. I really believe in the power of New Year’s and the opportunity it offers to think about who I am, where I’m at, what’s important to me, and how I want to spend my time. My January intentions are:

  1. Read Books. I read exactly one book in 2017, which is unacceptable. It’s especially unacceptable because I’m IN A FREAKING BOOK CLUB. For the past year I have literally been showing up to my book club every month saying, “Uh, sorry guys, I was really busy this past month and didn’t get a chance to, uh…” Pathetic. Anyway, we did a Yankee book swap at book club in December (using books we pulled from our own shelves at home) and I ended up with “Neither Here Nor There” by Bill Bryson, so I am reading that right now. I can’t say that I care for it much so far, but I am going to finish it if only as an exercise in sticking with it, dammit. Next up is the actual January book club book, “Homegoing” by Yaa Gyasi. Also on the list is Cait’s book, whenever I get it in the mail (hello, Amazon?).
  2. Eat vegan. This is for January only (as far as I know). I’m doing it largely as a way to force myself to focus more on my health, think more about what I’m eating, and cook more instead of eating out. I was a vegan for a period of time a few years ago and I don’t eat a ton of meat or dairy anyway, so I didn’t expect this to be super difficult…and it’s not. I’ve been making a lot of delicious vegetable soups and doing a lot of fun browsing around on one of my favorite blogs, Oh She Glows. So far, so good.
  3. Start doing yoga again. I had semi-quit doing yoga this past year because I joined a gym and was going to weight-lifting classes there instead, but I decided it was over it and missed yoga. My gym membership ran out on Dec 31st, and I started going back to one of the yoga studios I used to go to, taking classes from an instructor who I know and love, and it’s been great.

Welp…that’s it for now. I wonder if I would be a more frequent and/or better blogger if I let myself just write random update posts like this instead of feeling like every post has to be fine-tuned and on a specific topic. Any thoughts are appreciated.

Happy New Year! And happy end-of-the awful freezing cold spell to my fellow New Englanders.

6 Comments on “Just a Note

  1. Happy new year!

    I hope you land a much better job soon, I know you’ve been unhappy with this one for quite some time and I wouldn’t be surprised if that’s been affecting your enjoyment of writing. But I’m definitely an advocate of writing notes and being a bit more casual overall with the writing when you’re in a period of your life where you’re dealing with quite a lot of stressors. Otherwise a perfectly good stress outlet goes away!

    1. Thanks, Revanche. It’s been bad for a while but even worse lately. I’m typically out of the house for 12 hours (commute, work, commute) and when I get home I’m so stressed and upset that it’s hard to focus on writing or anything else. I have a week-long paid vacation coming up next week though, so I just need to make it one more week before I can take a breather — and maybe even write a little! I agree, writing can be a great stress outlet, provided I have the cognitive bandwidth to take advantage of it.

  2. My friend took me out for a great vegan salad in a little place in Venice, Florida- Thai salad with peanut dressing and grilled falafel 😊
    Loving my plant based journey!

  3. It’s so hard when your full time job sucks the life out of you so much you hardly have the time or energy for anything else, including possibly taking care of yourself in the best way. I can only send good thoughts something better comes along!

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